How Can It Be?

That this can happen in the blink of an eye!!!!!!!!

My beautiful little baby boy.......

.......has grown up so much that he excitedly told me tonight that there is only 2 more sleeps until he goes to school!!!!

This week I have gone from feeling nervous to excited to a bit teary.

Tonight I went in to Lachlan (who wasn't going to sleep in a hurry) and laid down next to him. He kissed my forehead three times and told me he loved me very, very much. Then he laughed and told me about the time Olivia said she loved her mummy so much that she wanted to marry her :) Then he closed his eyes and went to sleep. Its those times that the role seems to reverse and he is the one who comforts me and makes me feel secure and loved.

I know Lachlan will love school. I know that he will be polite and share and make friends (most of the time). So why do I feel this way. I am happy he is growing and do look forward to it, but these past few days I want to hold on to him right now and enjoy his busyness, his energy, his love of lego and cars and friends to play with, the way he loves to cook with me, and bugs me to make slime or play dough at the most inconvenient times.

Tomorrow I will write his name on all his things, pack his bag with him and get his clothes out ready. I'll be excited with him and talk about all the wonderful things he will do. But now I just want to hold on to my little constant companion and feel a little bit sad that he won't be that.